Break These Chains – 4.27 – It’s About Time

I could hardly breathe and I… I couldn’t even move. I just stared at Hal. He just said–did he just say? Yes. He did just say.

“I love you,” he said again, confirming the fact that YES! He just said that! “When we lived together, I thought you knew I was gay too,” he whispered. “I wanted to ask you out but was too scared… I decided to wait, to see if you gave any indication you might like me and you never did so I finally gave up. Then right after I started going out with someone you–you confessed to me!” He turned around, pacing over to the wall. I stared blankly at his back. “I wanted to tell you then. But I couldn’t. I was with someone else. I didn’t know what to do but finally I decided that I couldn’t be with him, if I loved you. So I dumped him.”

Hal spun back around to face me. “And I tried telling you, but that–that jerk kept calling you and you seemed happy with him so I gave up.”

“You… love… me?” I asked, hardly able to get the words out.

“Yes.” He knelt down on the floor in front of me, looking up earnestly. “I’ve loved you always. But you seemed happy with him, so I never told you. Then when you started having problems with him, when you told me he had hurt you that first time–I was about to tell you how I felt but I was with Derek.”

I thought back to that Christmas and let out a slight gasp. “You broke up with him that day, didn’t you?”

“Yes,” he muttered. “I couldn’t tell you how I felt when I was with someone else, it felt so wrong. So I left to go break things off with Derek. And to figure out how to tell you because I really didn’t want it to seem like I was just… taking advantage of you. I was only going to be gone less than an hour, time for you to lay down and relax. Before I could come back, you were back together with him.”

“Oh, Hal…”

He stood up and paced off again. “And when I saw he had hit you, I wanted to wring his neck! I wanted to hurt him! But you refused to admit he had done it, and I knew if I hurt him that it would hurt you.”

I let out another gasp and I felt something very painful. “Hal…”

“Then it was just misery for me!” Hal yelled. “I wanted to tell you so many times but I also wanted you to dump him. How could I do both? If I told you I loved you then tried to break you up with him–it just seemed so wrong to me, to do both. And I was worried you’d just think I was trying to get you to dump him because I wanted you. So I never told you. I just tried to… push you to dumping him…”

The pain shot up my spine. “Hal…!”

“But then you started drifting away,” Hal whispered. “You were hurting all the time and I felt so helpless. I thought constantly about calling the police but what good would that do since I wasn’t sure if you would admit to it?”

It felt like I was being squeezed. “HAL!”

“But I’m not letting it happen again. I’ve told you. There, I’ve done it, I’ve told you. And judging by that look on your face you don’t feel the same about me so I just did something stupid… Oh, I don’t care. It needed to be said and even if you think I’m a creep now, I’ll still help you with anything you–“

HALBERT CONNER!” I screamed, and he blinked at me. “I am making this face because I’m going into labor!”

*

The shock of finding out he loved me had pushed me into going into labor two weeks early, but the doctors assured me that everything was fine–that I had gotten to the hospital in plenty of time. My family soon showed up and both Hal and my mother were permitted back with me during this time.

It was a girl, a beautiful little girl. Hal took us home the next day and I didn’t want to put her down at all. She was so tiny and so perfect, just like Duncan had been as a newborn.

“This is your little sister,” I said, cradling her so Duncan could see.

“Plun,” was his reply, not looking very impressed.

Since he hadn’t gotten much sleep the night before (having been at my mom’s house, a place he had never stayed at before) he easily went down for a nap and I should have put my daughter down as well but I really couldn’t…

“What shall we name her?” I asked Hal, after Duncan had fallen asleep.

“We?” Hal asked. I blushed and looked down at the bundle in my arms. “You know, we still haven’t finished that conversation I started yesterday…”

“Careful, I might go into labor again if you tell me you love me,” I said and Hal smiled, though not completely. I knew why and knew how silly it was to pretend my feelings for him were anything other than what they were.

“I still haven’t told you that I love you too.”

“You do?” Hal asked, raising his eyebrows.

“Yes!” I laughed. “I’ve cared about you since when we became friends, but–I thought you were straight!” I looked back down at my daughter, my face brilliantly red. “When I told you I was gay, and you told me all that, I was going to tell you.”

“I was wondering if that’s what you would say,” he said quietly. “I was worried, since I liked you too–but I was with… another…” He shook his head and stepped closer. “But that’s in the past now. What’s important now is that we’re–we’re–“

“Finally telling each other the truth?” I asked, looking up.

He now nodded and leaned in. “Finally,” he said and then he kissed me.

Oh. How different it was from Doug’s kisses! Doug’s had power, fierceness, domination. Hal’s kiss was powerful in a different way, enforced with a gentleness and kindness that I immediately yearned for as soon as he pulled away.

“So,” he said, grinning. “What do you want to name her?”

It was like she was our daughter, it felt like she was ours. I wanted her to be Hal’s… and I knew I wouldn’t want it any other way. His confession of love, his kiss–it confirmed in me something I never really felt before. Like I was really someone, someone special. Something I always wanted to feel with Doug, I realized. What I tried convincing myself of with him.

But now was not the time to think of that monster. Now was the time to name my baby girl, and Hal sat down with me to discuss ideas. He really wanted me to be the one to name her but I wanted his input too so we soon decided on naming her after someone from a show or movie we both loved.

Sci-fi, of course. It had to be–with us. We quickly realized which show to name her from and began going over the girl characters, looking down at the newborn girl to see if one of the names fit. None of them did until we got to the name of the ship, but it was such a sweet name and so right that we decided that yes, that was to be her name. And we chose a middle name after a while, going through all the girl character names but none of them sounded right with the first name we chose. The name that fit well between her first and last name was the name of a male character–but that didn’t matter since it was a girl’s name.

And thus Serenity Jayne Danevbie was given her name.

*

It was rough, taking care of a toddler and a newborn baby at the same time. I couldn’t imagine having three of the same age at once and I felt a new appreciation for my parents, for being able to raise the three of us at once.

We made sure to give Duncan as much attention as possible. We were not going to have him lack anything just because there was a baby. And when Serenity was about a month old, we started on teaching Duncan how to talk since he had already pretty much picked up walking on his own.

We discovered his ability to walk one day when he came trooping into the kitchen where Hal was making some dinner, and went over and sat on Hal’s foot. “Nommy,” he said, his word for food. “Nommy!”

“Did he just… walk in here?” Hal asked, looking at me with amazement.

I went over and picked Duncan up. “I think he did…”

He was certainly old enough and must have just taught himself. Talking, though, still came a bit more difficult. He just preferred his babbling to real words. We hoped that potty training wouldn’t be difficult.

On the other side of living with Hal, our relationship was sort of proceeding. He insisted on taking things very slowly considering the type of relationship I had just gotten out of. I listened to him, even though a tiny little part of me–deep down–was scared that lack of physical love (like kissing) meant… well, something bad. I knew differently, and I knew how stupid it was of me to be scared of something like that. I just couldn’t help it.

We didn’t tell anyone about our relationship, not yet. There really wasn’t much of one. We hadn’t said ‘I love you’ since the day we brought Serenity home, though he did give me very loving looks and I know I looked all moony at him. If anyone figured it out, they didn’t say anything. And Vi and Zari–the ones who would be the first to notice–didn’t say anything.

Serenity was about a month old when Doug returned. I was in the kitchen getting Duncan some food when there was a knock at the door. Hal, being closer in the living room, said that he’d get it. I didn’t pay much attention until I heard raised voices, recognizing the other one as Doug’s voice.

“…know he’s here!” Doug shouted, and I looked up at the doorway, eyes huge. Fear collapsed on me like an avalanche, consuming everything that I had worked at since coming to Hal’s. I sank slowly to the floor, clutching my chest, breathing hard.

“He’s not here,” I heard Hal reply. “Now get off my property.”

“SEBASTIAN!” Doug shouted into the house. “Ow, let go of me you jerk! SEBASTIAN!”

I covered my face, stifling my crying. The sound of my name in his voice tore me into two. I felt sick, even more afraid. But I felt like I was doing something wrong, hiding out here. I wanted to get up and go to him. Those old rationalizations started swirling around in my head–He loves me, he cares about me, he needs me.

I stood up, swaying as I did, nearly falling over. Duncan was happily eating, thankfully oblivious to the storm raging around him. I could hear Hal trying to persuade Doug, and Doug yelling. He was angry. My body automatically drew away from his voice, expecting his fists.

Finally Hal yelled, “This is my property and if you don’t get off right this minute I will call the cops!”

Then the door slammed and I turned, staring at the doorway until Hal came through. As soon as he saw me he reached out, and I fell into his arms crying. “I almost–I w-wanted to… I wanted to go–t-to him!”

“I know, shhh, it’s okay, it’s okay, you didn’t go to him, see? You’re strong, you’re strong Sebastian… you’re strong…” He rubbed my back and held me protectively. I sank against him, crying until I could cry no more.

~*~

Author’s note:

The names Serenity Jayne is from the TV show “Firefly” one of the most awesomest awesome shows in existence. All subsequent names of Sebastian’s children are also from the show. ❤

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77 Responses to Break These Chains – 4.27 – It’s About Time

  1. Jazen says:

    That was a sweet chapter with the confessions of love. The labor scene was funny. I love her name.

    Doug is back 😦 I was hoping he would get lost in the desert somewhere. Just when things were going well for Seb. But he has Hal now and Hal isn’t going to let him go back to that bastard!

    Yay for happy(ish) chapter.

    • sErindeppity says:

      Thanks ^___^ I am excited about the names, I have a ton planned out all from the show xD for boys and gals ❤

      Yeah Doug is back but now Doug doesn't want to go back x] and Hal is not gonna let that evil brat anywhere near Seb, Duncan, and Serenity ❤
      (I could just imagine him going into labor after being told a shocking thing like that! ahaha poor Seb)

  2. Babies and first kisses and *********************************s, oh my! 😀

    I love the name Serenity Jayne. She’s so cute, even as a gross Sim worm-creature thing. XD Oh, and I forgot to mention that Hawthorne is adorable, too. Which is extremely hard to achieve, let me tell you, when you look like a fudging caterpillar. XD But they manage it anyways. 🙂

  3. Anon says:

    Grrr my stab Doug in the throat plan didn’t work. But yeah. Hal and Sebastian. That is all.

  4. seraphaeli says:

    Boooooo at Doug coming back, but I LOVE Serenity’s name. =D Firefly is super-awesome-epic and it should have had a longer life than it did. Anyway, I look forward to seeing where things go from here.

    • sErindeppity says:

      I love you. -gives you a special seat for the chapters-
      Hahaha Firefly is one of my all time favorite shows x3 It really did need a longer life. A much longer life. AT LEAST LET US KNOW WHO THE HECK SHEPHERD IS! -sobs-
      -wipes eyes- I’m ok. I’m ok. Thank you for the comment -tries to look dignified-

  5. Cereline says:

    Omg I was so happy for the new chapter lol! Ahhh Hal is so amazing and understanding ❤ I half-expected in tat last picture to see Doug creepin through the window…. I can't wait to see where this goes! Also, LOVE Serenity's name! I had a feeling it was from that show, I haven't seen it in ages BUT I HAVE SEEN IT! 😛 GREAT Update though!

  6. nestea7 says:

    I know I’m going to be the thousandth person who says this but I LOVE Serenity’s name. I can’t wait to see her as a toddler. And I have no words for Doug, so I’m just going to pretend he doesn’t exist.lol

  7. sweetribz says:

    OMg.. I had this overwhelming fear when I read Doug was there…I felt like i was Seb XP

    I was hoping he wouldn’t burst in past Hal. 😦 Thankfully Hal’s a big tought manly man, eh? 😛

    I saw Serenity Jayne and was like omgaw!!! FIREFLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY 😀

    • sErindeppity says:

      And I love you, and you get a special seat for the chapters too!!! 😀 Firefly is one of the best shows ever. x] I’m so glad so many of you guys have seen it x3 Especially since anymore kids that Seb has will be named after the characters 🙄 I have a list of name combinations. 😀
      I know what you mean. When I was proofreading it and Doug was there I got shivers. Poor Seb, but he triumphed!!! At least this time. :3

  8. Crazy chic says:

    Okay!!!! You rule!!!! I freaking love firefly!!!!

  9. Crazy chic says:

    *goes off whistling that song about Jayne*

    • sErindeppity says:

      Jaaaayne, the man they call Jaaaayne! He robbed from the rich and he gave to the poor, stood up to the man and he… gave them what for. Our love for him now ain’t hard to explain, the hero of Canton the man they call Jaaaayne!
      “No. This is what going crazy feels like.” Poor Simon xD
      BTW!!!!!! I have a Jaye hat. That red/yellow/orange knitted cap his mum gives him in the one episode? My mom knitted me a replica for Christmas one year 😀 it is beautiful.

  10. Crazy chic says:

    Oh and nice to see Seb with his glasses! 🙂 now he’s back and those ugly clothes are gone, wooohooo!!!!

    Guess spamming is my thing but gosh!!!! You got me excited!!!!

  11. Crazy chic says:

    That baby is now an instant fav 🙂

    But I wanna call her Jayne… Serenity is a mouthful but…. hey…. -_- Jayne… Jay…

    Well now I want to see how Jay Redding feels about Seb naming a baby after her namesake. Almost. Lol.

    Last spam… spam with a side of bacon and spam spam

    • spam spam spam spam spam eggs sausage and spam

    • sErindeppity says:

      o_o I never even saw that the Jayne/Jay thing ahahahaha. Whoops. Ah well, I’m sure everything will be fine if she becomes the heir. -coughcoughcoughcough- I cannot wait to share with everyone something about her. To give some confusion, I’ll say this: Firefly fans might have preferred me naming her River because of it 😉
      There. Soak that up and try to figure out why on earth that might make sense. Maybe Serenity is crazy? o: Or maybe she just hides under some stairs because someone has too much hair on their head.

  12. I love the name Serenity =] it’s much nicer than Duncan…. >.>

    I’m glad Doug is gone (for now) but we know he’ll be back =[

  13. EuphorialQueen says:

    Loved the labor sequence. Sebastian in labor and Hal declaring his true feelings all the while.
    Yes… Firefly is Most Awesome! Good choice for a name. Doug may have gone but I am betting not far.

    • sErindeppity says:

      Yes, I love you too -gives you a special seat as well- Firefly ❤ ❤
      hahaha I could justt see the whole confession shocking him into labor and Hal just spouting on and on not noticing x3

  14. I’m so happy they can find happiness together! And I’m loving Hal for standing up to Doug and kicking him of his property!
    It’s not over though, is it. Doug will come back :/ Maybe they can get him locked away for physical abuse? oO

  15. Go away Doug. :[

    And yay cuteness of naming and freaking out ‘I love you’s and everything non-Doug related. ❤

    And seriously, if you need anyone to go about distroying Doug feel free to use any of my lovelies. XD

  16. Hakari says:

    It was nice to see Seb back in his usual clothes, not those icky ones from Doug, and his glasses. AND HE AND HAL ARE KINDA-SORTA TOGETHER-ISH! SO HAPPY!
    ANDANDAND SERENITY IS SO PRECIOUS.
    So yeah, this chapter made me very happy. (I’m ignoring Doug now, because if not very bad things will happen to him aaaaand yeah 🙂 )

    • sErindeppity says:

      Glasses really do suit him x3 ❤
      Hal and Seb are sortaish together 😀 now all Seb needs to do is get Duncan officially given to him, so Doug can never have Duncan. Hopefully that goes well. x3

  17. Rozelliee says:

    I’m soo glad for them. ❤ I've wanted Seb to be happy for a long time. 🙂 Too bad Doug had to come in and ruin the happiness.
    When I read the first line when he went into labour I realized what was happening. Haha, but I'm glad Serenity was healthy. 😀
    I hope Seb can properly get over Doug sometime, though.

  18. ATMzie says:

    SEB & HAL!!!!!! Heck yeah, it’s about time!
    Serenity is such a cute name 😀
    I hope Doug stays away for least a while 😦

  19. thelizzy1990 says:

    Poor Sebby. I’d love to believe that he and Hal and the babies can live happily ever after, but I don’t think it’s going to be easy to get custody of Duncan if he’s not biologically Seb’s. I’m just scared about what role Jay’s going to play in all this.

    Anyway, Hal confessing was cute. I’m so glad they had a girl – that blonde hair would look gorgeous on a girl. And I love the name, it’s so sweet.

    • sErindeppity says:

      Blonde would be good but I am very very very very very very very happy with what her hair color is x] I think everyone else will be too ❤
      Yeah, Doug is not going to be out of Seb's life forever D:

  20. shelllegacy says:

    ❤ Serenity sure is going to be a cutie- considering how she's Seb's. Hal and Seb are much better parents to Duncan that Doug will ever be. Somehow I don't think Doug will go away, whether Hal is there or not. He's going to do something nasty to hurt Seb again, to get him back under control.
    xD I loved how Hal was trying to tell Seb he loved him whilst Seb was going into labor. Seb and Hal are so good together, and I'm glad to see everyone so happy (without Doug!) again 😀

    • sErindeppity says:

      Serenity turns out gorgeous ❤ I will say that.
      Hal and Seb are brilliant parents. Hal makes such a great daddy x3 so does Seb.
      Doug will be back though D:
      (I love the labor scene too, it's one of my favorites hehehehehe)

  21. The timing of his labour was hysterical. lol
    Love the name for the baby, I’m such a Joss Whedon geek.
    How do you write so fast?! I have loads of catching up to do!

    • sErindeppity says:

      I’m a major Firefly fan x3 And I pretty much love anything Joss Whedon. ❤ ❤ Brilliant and talented.
      I just start writing and can't stop 😳 I had to stop though since I finished writing this generation several days ago and I'm just kicking up my heels right now haha.

      • lol nothing wrong with loving the Whedon!
        Glad you are taking a break, you deserve it and it gave me a chance to catch up! 🙂

      • sErindeppity says:

        Lol well I am literally at the end of this generation–I have the last 7 chapters saved in drafts and are awaiting pictures, but I’m gonna try to pace it out to a chapter a day.
        I cannot wait to start writing the next gen though. o: But I’ll have to wait about five days xD

  22. Lathe says:

    Great timing with Seb going into labor -lol-
    At least this time Hal got to keep Doug away from Seb -mutters-

  23. Mia says:

    Firefly reference?
    You are officially the most geeky, amazing writer ever!
    You keep getting better and better. 😀

    • sErindeppity says:

      Teehee thanks. I am a major Firefly fan. It is such an amazingly brilliant glorious show.
      (Oh and a couple years ago my mom knitted me a Jayne’s hat. That red/yellow/orange knitted cap Jayne’s mum sent him in the one episode. Yep, I have one! And I wear it… a lot.)

  24. Doug better not try to steal Duncan. I loved the labor scene, what great timing that was. But seriously Doug, back off >.<

  25. zefiewings says:

    I love the name. ❤
    I don't think Doug is going to give up that easily….
    …why did Doug go away? not to check himself in surly…work?

    • sErindeppity says:

      Thanks!!! 😀 I took a while getting a bunch of Firefly names for kids. I was only unable to use one (Zoe Inara, which was a shame…)
      Doug won’t give up easily.x_x

  26. somebodysangel13 says:

    FIREFLY! Love that show. Great name, she’s going to be Seb’s serenity as the battle with Doug continues (and hopefully finishes).

  27. itserinmilan says:

    Oh serenity is perfect. And yes, it is one of the most awesome shows ever. Phew, things are looking up a bit. I can finally sleep! 🙂

  28. blamsart says:

    *crumbles into an emotional mess*
    That was…that was just…*claps* great chapter.
    Things are finally starting to look up.
    I can go to sleep at peace now. 😀

    • sErindeppity says:

      Thank you so much! ❤ yeah I was such a mess writing Sebastian's gen, it was so hard for me. It took a lot out of me mentally and emotionally. Hope you got some good sleep!

      • blamsart says:

        I sympathize! A lot of non-writers don’t quite realize it, but it hurts a lot more to write than to read it when emotionally harsh stuff happen ;_;
        I did, thank you very much 😀

  29. Danielle says:

    I was totally hoping Doug would’ve been away for longer.. AND was hoping Seb&Hal would’ve moved!

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